In my attempts of maintaining a level of separation, personal information, and true expression through my blog I have learned some things. My sister Andrea has also learned a few things herself, which we spoke on the phone at length about. It is common to be misunderstood, misquoted, and misinterpreted frequently. However none of us are actually writers or have many writer skills. So, bad communication is bound to happen. Instead of using skill, I try to be meticulous in my entries to ensure this doesn't happen. It still does, frequently.
Things changed on this blog once it started coming back to me from other areas in my life other than my family and a couple close friends. Sometimes I felt like writing to the whole world, and sometimes I felt like just writing to a couple people, unfortunately you do not get to pick and choose, unless you want to just email people, which I don't.
I have blown things out of proportion, marginalized important issues, and hurt people on this blog of mine. It is a living, breathing thing and sometimes I wonder if it's worth it all. Although some of my posts have had those negative effects, they were all temporary (so far as I know) and I have resolved those of which I have become aware of. So, why not just quit while I'm ahead right? Well, that's probably not bad advise.
I feel a dry spell advancing in which my posts will be further apart than normal. This blog of mine has facilitated a lot of growth opportunities for me and it's less from my words, and more from the words of my commenters. And for that reason I won't stop posting.
I have been unfair to Andrea in her comments to me. They have been consistently good and right. I like to brag I can talk about difficult things other people have difficulties talking about, but it's all relative. I have found it difficult to accept I am not where I want to be in my life where I need to be. Even now, as I am doing extremely well, it is still hard to accept I am still a long ways off from where I need to be. And my sister Andrea, has prayed for me to receive what it was that I needed (specifically), to aid me in my life. I can't help but feel humbled by the experience that her prayer has truly been answered, and I cannot deny that.
So, in conclusion, when in doubt, don't post or comment. Or if you need to comment, ask clarifying questions. Less drama and more fun.
-A
Quote of the day: If 'pro' is the opposite of 'con' does that mean congress is the opposite of progress? Does that make sense or did I just blow your mind?
- John Stewart
