I had a great birthday, I ate brunch with my friends at Gandalfo's, got in to see The Dark Knight and ate some delicious ribs at Goodwood. Afterwords we went and played some games and hung out for a while. It was a pretty fun filled day hanging out with good friends.
The Dark Knight is a very ambitious film. It interweaves so many concepts and ideas together sometimes it feels like you're watching something more than a movie, it is a glimpse into a real world that you didn't realize existed, and it feels as real and chaotic as our own world. If I were complain about anything it would only be the fact that I need to see it again, and maybe a third time to take it all in. Most of you know me to be of a critical nature, often times harsh, but for this... I feel awed by this movie. I don't feel as if I can quite summarize my experience with only one viewing, and in only one blog. It is that good.
Yesterday I was very somber. I woke up thinking about who I was and where I was. I caught a glimpse in church as to who I used to be, I saw the missionary me staring back, looking disappointed. I saw the nearly 4 years of my life wasted in struggle and turmoil. And I tried to justify, I tried to break free, but I couldn't escape the fact that I was now who I am, and I could never change that. Granted, I am not so bad, but the years lost of potential growth towards something harmonious with the gospel saddened my heart to a great degree. I felt a deep sadness as I thought of those who knew only this of me. This critical, sarcastic, cold-hearted wayward soul. I glimpsed all this and could not escape it. I went home and began to write of who I was, and hopefully discover how it was that I chose the decisions I had. Interesting enough I found it. The answer was buried where I felt it would be - my mission. Some of you know I was writing about my mission in chapters on this blog, and I knew I was coming to something big in it eventually, and I stumbled onto it yesterday. I will be posting that tomorrow. But rest assured, dear reader, I am better than ever.
So, go see the Dark Knight asap.
-A
