I feel like a glass Heinz Ketchup bottle. I've got a lot stored up in me I can feel it, but as hard as I might try I can't seem to shake it lose onto my plate for a delicious additive to my meal. Once someone told me to tap it on the embossed 57 on the neck of the bottle and it comes out. So, that's what I'm going to try to do.
...tap
I listened to all of General Conference thanks to some good friends. I wish I would have prepared myself for it more. It felt good, but not as good as I need it right now in my life. Things are going well in retrospect, but honestly no matter how well things are going it never seems like worries ever lessen. My good friends the Hansen's were kind enough to invite me up to their cabin to listen with several other family friends from their ward. We ate very well and lounged around listening and coloring (yes, like in coloring books heh). It was really good and I got a taste of some very special magic syrup that when combined with strawberries caused a fruit fusion of a sweet sugary release inside ones mouth. It was good. I am very, very thankful I am so welcome in their home and in their lives, they are good for me in unprecedented levels.
...tap
Avarie has been hospitalized. I was up at the cabin and didn't get the call immediately, however my heart is full with hope and prayer for her. Jenell and Craig I want you to know I am praying for your family and I love you. I don't know what to write quite honestly, I am at a loss, which might be an overreaction considering how little I actually know about the diagnosis and treatment. However, the fear I feel is paralyzing me in which I cannot express my worry and my love adequately.
...tap
I have begun to write this last "tapping" several times about me. I can't seem to write anything I should at this juncture. Even though I tapped several times, it seems it's not going to all come out, sorry, I'm just as disappointed as all of you. And no, I'm not going to get a knife and work it out of there, you always end up with ketchup on your hand and too much on your plate.
I believe my blog is going to become a review of books, movies, and music. I think it would be a fun change and a challenge as well. I think I'll always have more intimate posts here or there, but I think it's going to be more channeled... I don't know, just an idea for now. It's late, and I'm tired.
-A
