Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too
I took a drive up the canyon Sunday afternoon and it was beautiful. On the way back I could see a massive landslide had knocked down trees over a huge area, increasing the area the farther on down the mountain you looked. One loose rock tumbled and brought down the side of the mountain and destroyed everything in it's path. I am hesitant to call this a good or a bad thing, such destruction is often looked at in a negative light, but honestly landslides are as needed as fires (another area of the drive was covered with burnt trees from a fire long ago), or even floods. The metaphors for life in this regard are heavy and not often a part of the ways we appreciate life. We as a people have grown intelligent enough to recognize the need for these destroying forces, and so we have controlled avalanches, fires, landslides in order to prevent further damage to the landscape. I can see and apply this principle in my own life in many ways. Being as methodical in my rational as I am with the reality of my immaturity has offered me a unique chance to have controlled landslides. To express the honest truth of what I feel and not bottle it away for later. To make it a habit of facing the world in a real way, with hope and a positive outlook even after all the hopeless and pessimistic thoughts have passed through.
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
Some landslides move slowly down the mountain, my landslide of issues have surely reached a plateau which I am completely content with. But contentment is an understatement. My words in previous posts were heavy laden with doubt and frustration from many areas of life. I won't say everything is solved in the sense that I found all the answers I was looking for. But when I was looking for resolution in life through my unanswerable doubts, I only found lonely answers, unconnected answers. I have such a strong testimony of obtaining the proper perspective before deciding on the answers I seek.
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Thinking back on the uncontrolled landslide that happened on the backside of the mountain now gives me pause however. We are all susceptible to landslides in our lives no matter how well we communicate and think we have the proper perspective. But since everyone has to deal with that reality, I am perfectly okay with it. Feeling stable, happy, and free is not an excuse to let my guard down from potential landslides however, but knowing where my feet are standing is all the security I need right now, and is more than I have known in a long time.
-A
