Thursday, June 26, 2008

Ego

I have been told I have an ego. I admit this. The problem is that it's relative and biased based on perspectives. I'm no psychologist and won't pretend to really know what I'm talking about here.

The interesting point I want to talk about is why we have problems with people with ego's. It seems to come into conflict with those who supposedly dont have ego's, or at least not in the context in which the two are arguing. One side, the Ego, has come to conclusions, whether valid or not, and is firm in believing his findings are correct. The other, the Open Mind, rallies against the conclusions the ego has made. It's silly how often this happens in the large scale (political debates, religious leaders, etc) and on the small scale (If the milk is bad, if you locked the door, etc). This happens all the time. And me, enjoying the art of thought and verse, am inexorability thrust into this situation.

Unfortunately not everyone enjoys this, and some of these people are those we love. When you feel like the person you are going to talk to has an answers to questions unasked it makes it very difficult to trust that person with your concern. Having answers is okay, but it's the timing that's important, and egotistical people don't have good timing. It's the balance between accepting there are things we don't understand and things we do (or so I believe), and can answer. Unfortunately it's been said I'm too smart for my own good, and that's true too. I'm trying to relinquish the ego while maintain my identity. But the problem is when you're too smart for your own good it's difficult to accept that you yourself can't fix it. That it takes a guiding hand that the ego will accept. I know I have been that hand at times, and I have had others close to me be that hand.

Please understand too that I am having fun at the expense of my ego a LOT of the time. While I may have an ego, he also has a very good sense of humor about it all.

-A