I lay the tracks you lock the flow

Being sick sucks. I'm almost through my cold now. I took so much medicine yesterday heh, unfortunately it didn't seem to help much.

So, back on track -

I suppose we all deal with this sooner or later. Moments when writing down in these blogs we've made becomes more trouble than it's worth. I knew the bubble would burst sooner or later and peoples monotonous posts, lack of posts, and life would just eventually lead their interests away. Heck, even my posts of late have been pretty tame and lame. I ponder on the what this blog actually is to me and everyone else. I know I've been probably a little too forth coming for my own good (and some other peoples), I've maybe stirred the pot when I should have let it sit, but connecting with everyone outside of my room was ultimately more important than anything I could have written. I could have smoothed over almost anything (I'm very good at smoothing things over) I felt, so I just wrote, unabashed, hoping to be free of my loneliness.

And now, now that I am no longer lonely, what is my purpose? What is the intent of my words now? I could say, simply to keep in contact, spout off here or there about this topic or another. And maybe I can do that, maybe I can keep posting with such frequency with those intents. What I don't want is to lose my honesty, to get complacent in my posts and lose the edge I once had. I thoroughly enjoy writing along the edge, and hope I can when the time comes again.

So, chin up my dear readers, if you're tired of your blog being one thing, change it, no one says you have to keep it the same. Make it a blog of quotes for a while, make it your scripture study journal (I thought about that one, and I still think its a good idea). You can always turn off comments on your blog too, sometimes being able to comment isn't necessarily a good thing - sometimes you just need to say stuff, and if people really want to respond they can just call. What I'm saying is find a new purpose, as I'm trying to, so that we don't go days, then weeks, then possibly months between.

I'll let everyone know when I've hammered out a new purpose for this blog, got to lay the tracks first.

-A

Short, but sweet

I am back.

I had a great vacation up in WA with my fam. I forget sometimes how good it is to be with them all, and I only really got to hang out with a small portion of them. But I'm going back there in a couple months for a longer period of time so no biggie.

So, okay, generally I don't do anything without learning something and this blog is where I analyze that something. Unfortunately nothing juicy happened this vacation to warrant some long post about it. I did however make some resolutions upon my return to further improve my situation. Feeling good about dating for fun now is one of them. Finding a stable job is another one. I think with these two additional lifestyles I can better assess my situation and have more options in order to understand myself, and make better decisions in my life. Nothing has happened yet, so don't be too relieved heh.

But I'm glad to be back home too, sleep in a real bed, use my own bathroom. It's been a long time since I was happy to get back to my life, so I must be doing something right.

Thanks again everyone for a great trip!

-A